I’m not where I want to be but thank God I’m not where I was!  

I recently posted an article on my Facebook page about things no one tells women about their weight loss journey.  This is going on year 2 of my weight loss and I have found the scale creeping back up.  I am back to the “200”s….204 to be exact.  November of this last year I pitched the nutrition ball into someone else’s court.  Trouble is it has bounced back and got me.  We went on a trip and I decided I was going to have Cracker Barrel (biscuits and gravy among other things) and lots of carbs that were not the good kind and it led to me eating more and more of that stuff. I kept this pattern up through Christmas until I said enough.  I slowly began creeping back up the scale.  The summer we went to Hawaii I was at my lowest 185 so how did I get back to an 19 pound weight gain…..I thought I had buried that old me but she lurks in there waiting to rear her head.  I have been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds for the last 3 months (can I get and amen).

I was encouraged to blog again by a few of you and I just didn’t want to be “transparent” in my struggle or show that I didn’t have it as together as appeared. I still have the desire to use all this for God’s glory but that pride thing has held me back.  I still want to pursue Physical training/nutrition but I always feel I can’t because I want to be believable and be that 150lb. “fit” girl that “looks” the part. I am beginning to see the lie in that thought.  These past few weeks I have been feeling like I should share the struggle of my story because I am finding that this journey is not an easy one but a consistent, fighting in the trenches daily battle.  I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t loosing until I plugged in my food to my fitness pal (the stuff I could remember) last night and it was a whopping 1700 calories…..not a way to lose the weight.  I am still exercising and loving the fit lifestyle but as they say the battle is won in the kitchen.  It’s 80% nutrition and 20% exercise.  I think it all boils down to that ugly word “flesh”.  Sunday the preacher told the story about the 2 dogs….well I have been feeding the wrong one (google old indian proverb about the 2 dogs) I have been feeding it literally stuff I know that originally got me in this place but then I cry and whine because the “scale” isn’t moving.  Time to get real with myself so I’m going to make my journey transparent and get back to blogging again.

I just want to encourage you  no matter where you are in the battle DON’T GIVE UP!  I could focus on how far I have to go or I can get wrapped up in a “number” but I don’t want to do that, instead I will keep moving forward. I want to learn from each step I take (hopefully I won’t have to repeat to many of them) and move on to freedom.

Today I ran across the passage Jeremiah 32:17 Behold, I am the Lord the God of all flesh, (theres that word again) is there anything to hard for me?  I answer with a resounding NO!

I just wanna GO!

I find myself eagerly awaiting spring with thoughts of I want to go here, there, and everywhere all at once.  The mountains are calling me, the ocean is calling, and even New York city has my number.  I have spent the last few months catching up on putting together our vacation books….from the last 4 years.  Several years ago a friend introduced me to Shutterfly and I was hooked.  I quit printing my pictures and started making photo books.  They are awesome, although it takes sitting down at the computer and getting it done. Did I mention I am 4 years behind!  This winter has left me feeling itchy to get outside and go camping and I finally figured out why.  Looking at the pictures I have been reminded of how much fun we have as a family.  These pictures have also reminded me of how beautiful Gods creation is.  They say a picture is worth a thousand words and the ones I have been going back over have said volumes.  Those words say that your kids grow up fast so treasure each minute.  They also say live in the real moment, not the virtual one.  So many of us today spend to much time in the virtual world driven by the internet.  I think we can get caught up in the daily grind we forget to have intentional relationships.  Our vacations over the last few years have involved a tent, spatula, cooler, groceries and a roll of foil.  Getting back to nature was by far one of the best decisions we ever made! We have done the Disney and Maui resort vacation, and they have their place and it was a wonderful experience. But, being in the mountains without cell service and without distraction feeds the soul.  Today, as the groundhog says we have 6 more weeks of winter I’m going to think of it as more time to reflect and finish these photo books, and plan!  This summer may be the first time in 19 years we go on vacation without our daughter.  She is in her second year of college and is branching out (as we taught her to be adventurous) and so some juggling may occur for all of us to be together.  We can’t seem to make our mind up about the direction!  On the list is Utah, North and South Dakota (Mt. Rushmore), The Great Smokey Mountains, or the Appalachian trail, I think we will just flip a coin. I think the whole point to this is it’s not the mountains calling, its uninterrupted time with family enjoying life without interruptions so keep calling and I will answer!

Blessings and enjoy just a few of our memories, Cathy

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Glacier National Park

Glacier National Park

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Life lessons from a chicken

This past week our youngest son showed his broiler project at the county fair. The kids have always had livestock to take care of and raise so this is nothing new. Well Brady would say its new to him because his big sister is away at college and its all on him. We usually raise a swine project for the fair and registered heifers for all the major stock shows, but this year we decided to go for chickens. Our oldest raised birds for the Houston Livestock Show & Rodeo and always did well but it was always cooler weather. The broiler project lasts about 6 weeks and is pretty intense. Continue reading

No secret formula

I can’t tell you how many times I was asked what I have done these last few weeks. People want to know “What are you doing?” We’ll there is no secret answer. I have noticed over the years there are so many “diets” out there that claim to be the “one”. There is the old grapefruit diet, the cabbage diet, the Adkins, as well as hundreds of others. I have learned the secret and it’s pretty simple……..are you ready……calories in = calories out! Continue reading

Absence of 1

Week 2 of our daughter being away at college and when I stop to think about it I still catch my breath and try not to tear up. Emily turned 18 on August 15 and moved to school the next week. Our firstborn is growing up! It is possibly one of the hardest things to do, yet one of the most exciting. As we drove away after helping her get settled, the 3 of us (her dad, brother, and myself) cried. It was such a special time for us shopping for her new place, hanging curtains and pictures, and best of all the quiet talks about life. The years pass so quickly and it’s here before you can blink. Continue reading

Overcomer

I love the song Overcomer by Mandissa. The journey I have been on this past year and 3 months has all been about overcoming. Today has been the best day for good news! I have been on Metformin for my diabetes for 14 months and today the Dr. Said the magic words (not so magic because it was all dedication and hard work) “I am taking you off your Metformin, and I would call you a non-diabetic”. I know I will always have this disease but being able to manage it with diet and exercise is words I have longed to hear! The woman that was beaten down and discouraged thinking it was too big a mountain to climb reached the top today! Continue reading